Angry and heartbroken and confused about which is the stronger feeling.
I've been thinking about what she said and i'm not sure i'm not angry at her too.
It's all like a small nightmare unfolding in my head everytime i think about it, like a tape stuck on play/rewind. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about what happened with her.
Heartbroken for her, angry for her, angry at her. Angry because someone i care about was hurt and used. Angry she didn't know, angry she agreed.
And yet i know i can't blame her. I know sometimes people are used, and bad people are always on the lookout for people who think they want to be used. But she should have known. Makes me sick to the stomach to share her with something like that.
Bah!
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