Saturday, April 30, 2011

Last nite's bad dream included the shocking realization that my folks had used up most of my extra-virg olive oil.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I need a psychiatrist.

Silly is what silly does

And that was a pretty silly reason for all this :p. And if that was a proof of lack of care, if that was me doing something that hurts someone else, then I'm rather fortunate I didn't get to the more serious stuff.
I don't deserve to be around someone who won't let me be myself - and who claim to get hurt by me doing what I want. If people can't tell when something is serious or offensive, then they don't know me - and certainly I'm in no way going to let myself be forced to make decisions that aren't me to satiate somebody's vulnerable, silly ego. Or to make a decision that isn't even on the table, that doesn't exist, that was just invented and planted there for dramatic effect.
People give you ultimatums in serious moments, when there is a serious mess-up and two very real choices are in front of you: A or B. Especially when A or B are mutually exclusive. But when option B is not even a serious threat to A, when it's not even a choice, just a momentary dilemma, a silly mundane issue, I won't be drawn into a forced issue just because option A was invented on the spot. Taking something that's a non-issue and making it an issue just for selfish reasons isn't right.
I am selfish, yes. I have many flaws. If I hurt someone, I'm sorry for doing it. If someone else is hurt because they don't like who I am, they don't understand me or know me, how can I even bear the responsibility? 
If there's one thing I can and always will be, it will be myself. If that's not enough, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for any pain I cause, and I'm sorry for everything else.
But I can't be anything but myself.

Meredith Brooks - Bitch

Queen - i want to break free (high definition) + Download link

Last nite's repertoire: B52, Chat Noir, Kulturhaus and finally, Club A.
Last nite's playlist highlights: Tanya's "Rudeboy", Annouk "Nobody's Wife", OCS "Oda", Queen "I want to break free"...