Saturday, December 14, 2013



open legs, closed heart

Saturday, November 30, 2013

It's like i got no reason to feel this way yet for some reason i feel miserable.

never though I'd related to her lyrics so much in my life

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Tuesday, November 12, 2013


"None of us want to be fully revealed. All our faults and weaknesses laid bare for the world to see. All the more reason to make sure I never again stray."

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Yasmine Hamdan - Hal

http://www.youtube.com/v/yw6nD1MkXNo?version=3&autohide=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=RIl7EIdFyg4JeEJvQLrxMQ&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share
http://www.youtube.com/v/kOdHND_wt0k?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=yTiY-3IUqjMYriEPgvbT_w&autoplay=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share
http://www.youtube.com/v/fbcZPpynsGU?autohide=1&version=3&autohide=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=2ALXeGeX2Nmeviqh-fDrew&showinfo=1
http://www.youtube.com/v/s7qvvJWkUXk?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=VFNTF8ft8r4wZDavqhwK1w&autoplay=1&feature=share&autohide=1&showinfo=1
http://www.youtube.com/v/QX3UEGFrINI?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=0Pugaj8ysJ5WIL-BkkbeBg&autoplay=1&showinfo=1&feature=share&autohide=1

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

I am worthless.

I am indifferent.


I am everything.

I am nothing I can't think of.


I am trapped.


I'm not alone, but I am lonely.

I'm not poor but I'm broke.



Light never escapes the event horizon of the black hole. It's just trapped there - spinning for all eternity, never to live or die again.

It's crystallized hope suspended in nothing. It's what feeling trapped on the edge of desperation and depression next to happiness feels like.

I burn.

I don't sleep. I dream when I'm awake and I don't when I'm not.

I'm strong and I can take it all but it makes me tired.

I have anger I can't vent, wrath I can't pour into anything or anyone.



I just want to know.



Tonight, like every night, I can see a million miles but I can't get very far.

Sunday, November 3, 2013


 I've had this window open for half an hour now and I still don't know what to say or how to say it.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

You're a remarkable woman, if you don't mind my saying.

As long as it's you saying it, and not my fine rice wine.

Well, it takes more than a few drinks to render my judgment blurry. What about you? Am I getting any prettier?

By the minute...

Los Angeles, hollywood.

I'm not broke but I feel broken.

I'm planning to change my life and it makes no sense but...what else can I do?

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Friday, September 27, 2013

gimme love like her

Thursday, September 26, 2013

I Wanna Get Off With You


Every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself

Monday, September 23, 2013

like sunburn

kiss me


I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms

Friday, September 20, 2013

I'm the kind of person who says a lot. I'm the kind of person who doesn't say enough.

I'd like to tell you nice things, but you know I can't and shouldn't. I say a lot but don't tell you enough. And things have been on the tip of my tongue begging for the justification to say it, but I'm always blown away by how selfish that would be - you don't need that. 

You're better off with a clear mind.

I'm better off knowing you're doing what you love.

I'm better off with you never knowing what I'd say to you on the doorstep. And you're better off thinking I don't care if you stay or go.

Thursday, September 19, 2013


All I knew this morning when I woke

Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before
just mine? not today.

your daddy knows you're a flame


im stunned in a daze

she had the whole street set ablaze

Your daddy knows, you're a flame.



baby gonna have your lips for sure

He saw a lovely girl

Smelling sweet and soapy like fresh air

She saw him looking, acted like she didn't care

That's how we knew

Your daddy knows, you're a flame.
best dreams I ever had were dreams in which I die

once again, there I am.

swirling, dust sparkle, jet stream.

I'm as strong as an ox and as weak as they need me to be.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

She's going to prowl when the storm comes 
And it'll come, and it'll come, and it'll come 
Instead she says, "Can't get none". 

Sunday, September 1, 2013

I suck at always wanting more and rock at choosing to want it when I can't.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

yep. still a fuckup.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013


When I was a kid, I used to dream a lot. Daydream, pretend, wish - it was who I was. A kid who liked to imagine. A kid with the gift of make believe.

When I was a kid, I used to pretend. I pretended to have a pet tiger by 3rd grade, who'd follow me around to school and back and be my silent best friend.

I'd pretend I had super powers. I'd pretend I was invisible and could go anywhere, do anything. I'd pretend I'd be more alive.


Today, I laugh at my superpowers. I laugh at this little kid who had no idea what to wish for.

Today I wish I had the power to whisk anyone I choose away on some island. Some bubble world removed from care. A world where we dont need anything or want anything but each other. I don't want ridiculous cares and issues and I dont know just make a little bubble world for me and her.

I'm not perfect and I don't want to be. I don't want someone perfect either.

That's why it's a super power. Because its not real. And it's fucking stupid. And it's never going to be like that
and I'll always, always be fucking hollow.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Thursday, July 25, 2013


confusion is not supposed to be a state of mind, and it's all your fault, you bitch.

you sexy, sexy bitch.

Saturday, July 13, 2013


sister, I know everyone does whatever they damn well like

but I don't get taken for a fool


Tuesday, July 9, 2013


arghhfhhhjfjfjsfa233sd

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I'm so hard to handle 


I'm selfish and I'm sad 


Wish I had a river ... I could skate away on

Sunday, June 16, 2013


Wednesday, May 29, 2013


what we did was fun and good and over now because of you know who you won't talk about

swirling, dust-sparkle, yet stream i just can't go there with you anymore, i just can't be what you want me to be

i don't do compromise. i want what i want and nothing else. you wanted nothing else either, and nothing else is what im giving. you want more, get more. but not both ~

ask and you shall receive
ask and you shall receive
ask and you shall receive

dirty sexy foxy smart little whisper from beyond

calling me, why won't you stop calling me.

my fire is fucking wild

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

~


~ take you to every party cause all you want to do is dance ~

Friday, March 8, 2013

Urarea mea de ziua femeii pentru voi femeile (pentru ca sunteti gigea)


Hey girl!

Da, tu - doar esti tipa. Cu tine vorbesc. E 8 martie asa ca:

La multi ani! 

Azi tine minte cam urmatoarele chestii, dudette: sa ramai optimista (chiar daca meteoritul fatal mai are 3 minute pana ne pulverizeaza), delicata (dar gen in sensul, stii cum panza de paianjen e de 3 ori mai subtire decat firul de par uman dar de 3 ori mai rezistenta ca otelul, la aceeasi grosime? like, that kind of delicate. Nu in sensul ala al servetelelor parfumate ieftine care sunt faine si misto dar gen ti se rup in mana), puternica ( ROAR, intelegi ce zic? Dar nu foarte puternica fizic. Cu siguranta nu. Vreau si eu si altii sa ne simtim super eroi cand desfacem borcane!), misterioasa asa precum gen ceva inefabil din poezie dar NU - ABSOLUT NU - ca misterele din Scooby Doo pentru ca, stii si tu, alea erau like WOW un mister dupa care la sfarsit aflai ca era tipul naspa care opera caruselul si erai "meh", si tandra ca un vin ...erm, tandru care e inmiresmat si parfumat si AWESOME dar care nu te ameteste rau de tot dupa care iti ia banii din portofel si te lasa acolo ca sa te ia amicu tau Adi cu masina sa te duca acasa. Hmm, deviez.

J.D. Salinger zicea ca femeile sunt toate cel putin un pic nebune, dar cine vrea sa fie plictisitor, nu? (high five!) Tot ce vreau sa zic (in ciuda inabilitatii mele de ma exprima precum in filmele alea pentru gagici care va plac voua - si nu nega ca iti plac!) este ca meriti un mare La Multi Ani tocmai pentru ca esti femeie, si ca tip stiu foarte bine ca trebuie sa va multumim pentru ca aveti tot felul de feluri de-a fi misto: pentru ca puteti fi si fiice, si iubite, si mame, pentru ca stiti sa ne dati that look, pentur ca desi uneori ma plang enorm cat dureaza sa va aranjati+machiati etc crede-ma ca like mega super awesome deep down inside unde noi iubim secretly faptul ca sunteti cochete si stiti sa va aranjati si stiti numele tuturor  celor 10 mii de produse de cosmetica, pentru ca ai gen un stil vestimentar foarte feshan (atat cat ma pricep eu... adica, imi place!), pentru starea aia super faina dar raw dupa exercitiile la sala cand sunteti gen sweaty and RAWR, pentru atunci cand ne luati hainele si le puneti pe voi, pentru pozele voastre de liceu usor amuzante, pentru ca atunci cand sunteti voi in preajma si apare vreun copilas simt ca am o scapare.

Dar mai ales pentru ca sunteti really confusing. Adica, what the hell? Vrei sa fii independenta dar vrei sa fii pampered? Esti femeie puternica dar DA-MI AFECTIUNE ACUM what the hell? Ma intimidati. Cred ca d-aia iti urez La Multi Ani. De frica!

Si daca mai ai momente cand esti geloasa pe alte fete adu-ti aminte: everyone farts.

Monday, February 18, 2013

My superpower is turning alcohol into regret.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Wow.

byesies


Thursday, February 7, 2013

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

tu me manques

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

i am done with my graceless heart




I am a man and I have a graceless heart. It collects regrets, it relives my darkest moments, it sees no other way. My graceless heart is what makes me a fool, blind to leave the past behind. I am done with it. Gracelessness is not befitting a man. I shall cut it out and restart. It shall by my sacrifice to your altar. It's already been cut out. It's time I keep that issue drawn. Darkest. Dawn.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Well. Awkward really. What now?...

I cannot stop dancing to this.

[...]

Chet Faker - Terms and Conditions

Progresul tau ma face sa rad cu lacrimi. Is this really the "better" you were so confident you can do?

Sunday, January 27, 2013


You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
So that you could have the good

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Fuck fuck fuck shit what's wrong with you brain NOT NOW just let me enjoy this okay?
What the hell is the problem anyway?
You had to connect the dots. To listen into some random song, to go into that. Why? You and I know we can't be there, we can't go there, we can't be near... that. It's just a dream and it's the kind of dream you pop like a bubble if you reach for it. Stupid song.
Stupid mistakes.

Fuck.
Fuuuck!

Friday, January 18, 2013

Curva regimentului, si eu am ales-o.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Saturday, January 5, 2013


no I don't feel better when I'm fucking around