Silly is what silly does

And that was a pretty silly reason for all this :p. And if that was a proof of lack of care, if that was me doing something that hurts someone else, then I'm rather fortunate I didn't get to the more serious stuff.

I don't deserve to be around someone who won't let me be myself - and who claim to get hurt by me doing what I want. If people can't tell when something is serious or offensive, then they don't know me - and certainly I'm in no way going to let myself be forced to make decisions that aren't me to satiate somebody's vulnerable, silly ego. Or to make a decision that isn't even on the table, that doesn't exist, that was just invented and planted there for dramatic effect.

People give you ultimatums in serious moments, when there is a serious mess-up and two very real choices are in front of you: A or B. Especially when A or B are mutually exclusive. But when option B is not even a serious threat to A, when it's not even a choice, just a momentary dilemma, a silly mundane issue, I won't be drawn into a forced issue just because option A was invented on the spot. Taking something that's a non-issue and making it an issue just for selfish reasons isn't right.

I am selfish, yes. I have many flaws. If I hurt someone, I'm sorry for doing it. If someone else is hurt because they don't like who I am, they don't understand me or know me, how can I even bear the responsibility? 

If there's one thing I can and always will be, it will be myself. If that's not enough, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for any pain I cause, and I'm sorry for everything else.

But I can't be anything but myself.